Guys!

I must say something

I Post this in Twitter and Insta but I gonna post here too.

I have moved away from my mother, the situation simply became so untenable that I had to leave the field and return to the town. Now I am with my big sister who is still in a wheelchair (She got an Accident). I've been here since last Saturday and yesterday Monday I felt the havoc from living with Mother, I became sick in such a way that I could not move. Many things came together. But today I already feel a little better.

As for what to do and how to continue, well... It is true that I have addressed the rest of my family in a derogatory manner, but it was because I had the So brainwashed that I believed the lies Mother used to tell me. They could have screwed up many times in her lifetime and that's okay, they learn from they mistakes. It was of no use to me to agree with that all the time just to not listen to her mouth and even so always She was talking derogatory shit about me. That it was useless no matter how useful it tried to be. Several times I have given her money from the commissions to feed her goats and chickens. There weren't many but even ask or thank you for that. She is a black hole, money will never reach her. It is true that Grandma wreaked havoc with her but even so she did not learn anything good and continued to promote the same harmful behaviors: physical abuse of my older sibilings and verbal abuse of me. I didn't know how to recognize it until I was older and no matter how hard I tried to do what she wanted I ended up with my self-esteem on the ground, I don't have security when speaking, and to cope with that I isolated myself in drawing and in the things that I like. I became someone who looked down on others (Well, I still do but I try to correct it) That it was better than the people around me. More than once I have come to treat you like garbage because of my frustration at not being able to even sell something or being someone with large numbers. (In Twitter and Insta) 1000k is a big number but I still feel like it's not enough. I apologize for being like this for now, my commissions still open but I won't stop looking for a real job. I can't stay here doing nothing.

That is all.